Squishy Sad Faced.

I can't even believe... These photos horrify & upset me. In fact when I found them last week I vowed never to share them, but here I am.. Showing you... Why? Because you've all been so supportive & I base my path here on honesty, on showing you the good, the bad, & the downright sad. 

This was just a couple of months before I let people know how desperately unhappy I was, my facial expression on the left was perhaps all that people ever saw, me looking to the ground, trying to hide my misery. It saddens me, but the best thing I ever did was seek help, depression is such a deep dark hole to be in alone. I avoided letting anyone in, I shut the doors, stuck on a smile & trudged through life until I broke. 

That day, the day I let the tears fall down my cheeks whilst sitting in the doctors office was the moment my world changed, the relief was immense. I took anti-depressants, saw a counsellor & got referred for my gastric sleeve - My journey began.  Depression doesn't just disappear, in fact I believe it's constantly lurking in the background waiting to grab you whenever you let your guard down. To avoid falling, I try & address any issues that arise rather than hide from them as I did before, so far this seems to be working; My life has transformed so vastly that I haven't had a moment to allow things to get the better of me,  I remain positive & happy. I am looking forward to the future whilst looking after myself inside out. 

Thank heavens for the support I've been given via the NHS, family, friends & all of you. I definitely would've found my journey so much harder without you all, thank you. Xx